oh wow

Ok so I've got it bad.... I should just end there but after last night, and what people supposedly asked my bro and my sister, I can't ignore our connections. Ronan pretty much has my heart I wish when I was around him I didnt get epically stupid. But yeh he does that to me, i guess that action is mutual cos he says stupid stuff too lol.

I dont want to rush things with him, wait yeh i do but i know he is chivalrous and i think hes kinda prude, im not saying that im not, but i think i got a step up on him against prudeness. Like i wish he would just tell me what he thinks, if he wants to play old school he should tell me first right? I think once he gets a job and is able to take me out he'll change his tune, so Im trying not to freak out, especially after last night when everyone said duh we know what's going on with you two. One of you have to make a move, and I dont want to be aggro so i have to say that I can't be the one to go first.

Altho im a sneaky bastard and gave him his 1rst bday card! And it was cute he took it back to his car so it wouldnt get ruined, that made me go AWW that he didnt want it damaged. Then he let me buy him a shot again, at least he's letting me do that he gets mad sometimes but meh he can deal its really all i get to buy him. I sound so high school in this sentence im a little scared!! Does liking someone tremendously do that to just about everyone?? Then i girlified myself out, just how much? I painted my nails i'll state for the record i like i painting my nails but because of my work they peel so fast i never do it. He got the painted nails cos I wanted to dress nice for his birthday.

He makes me giddy like a school girl and that really creeps me out lol, because i am an adult yet when im around him i feel elementary all over, i cant say anything intelligable and i do listen to what he says but i get so lost just space out lol.

its weird everyone in our group now asks me about him, where is he at did you talk to him recently, are you 2 together. its just im usually only tied to my sister and my brother. So its like we're already together in everyone elses eyes, we have a cheering section! Altho i wouldnt mind if the cheering section closest to him told him to make a move or something lol. No that would be pushing him and idk if he is ready for anything besides continuous flirty stuff lol.. which he is so cute lol... *gush entered here*

It was crazy last night no one from our group came up and talked with me and him cos we were standing off to the side, it really was date like because most people kept their distance, and they all get +1 xp for not staring this time. Altho i was embarasssed when my friends mom asked my brother if me a ronan were together! It shocked me cos i don't think anyone asks them that, well except Z asked mark once. Its like im finding out everyone is talking about us and asking my sibs if ronan and i are together cos we're elementary lol.
ok i have to stop here or its gonna be bigger gush city and i don't know how much i can really say right now that isnt a repeat......