miracles i swear

Holy crap this day has been so damn weird... I found out who my stalker at work was.. not really a stalker but some guy who i have met from somewhere who recognised me at the local 7-11 (weird I know).. and i just happened to see him when i went to my work for fucking ice cream of all things lol Then my friend at work asked me to answer the phone because it was ringing and it happened to be a co-workers estranged daughter. Then i get an email from that co-worker tonight all because i forgot to call her like i planned to all because my stalker stopped me before i made it out the door. But now my co- worker has worked out her problems with her daughters and i had a hand in that i mean its genius really because i'm such a scatterbrain it totally flew right over my head i mean come on is that not some kind of miracle at work?
Yeh i can't begin to explain today its like i was meant to go to my work to give my friend a bday card and ice cream and to answer that phone otherwise the call would've gone unanswered cos the store got slammed at that time so i think some higher powers had a hand in this one i obviously can't take the credit but it was like fate or something i can't wait to call my friend later.. i emailed her but its just not the same as telling her the chain of events.
Fuck sorry had to spill all that as in unfolded :)

okay okay i'm dramatic what the fuck lol

Ok so my friends don't really abandon me I just got pissed at one friend and took it out on them all lol.. I think sometimes I feel like a mess waiting to happen then i open my eyes and realise that i'm fucking insane lol.. I don't know exactly where my thoughts lie and i think i lie to myself to say i told you so or maybe to prove a point, its something i'll never truly understand.

I think if i could be more flexible that my friends could be too but thanx to slaveway that never really happens lol... Sometimes i can't wait to get through school and get the hell outta that shit hole, but it pays good for now and helps me even attempt to make it through school... yeh at a turtle's pace lol
Well that's my gab for the day cos that's all i can think of lol.

Angry doesn't begin to describe how i'm feeling

I always begin to wonder about people's motives and how in the hell they can call themselves your friends. For awhile you chill a lot and then one day it just stops they don't call you back don't take the initiative to hang out and get all frumpy because you called trying to hang out. At this point in time I feel like a lot of my friends have abandoned me, i will always have my family but i see them every day except sara she's family but i don't get to see her much. I odten wonder what happens in people's minds to make them quit wanting to hang with me, have i gotten so boring that i put them to sleep or something. This is what i'm pondering at 2 Am and angry at all my local friends right now.