Something for nothing wait huh??

So wow its been a really long ass time. I guess i'm lame and just didn't have time to whine about shit lol... And wow its always late at night that my mind just kills me.... So newest update new year. band back together. one less cat and still no optimism..... I know i'm supposed to focus on it being a new year and dreaming that things will get better every new year that comes around right.
Still can't say things are up i'm trying tho really hard to stay somewhat sane is this working not really, just too much craziness.
Like DV is still this stupid staple in my life no matter how many times i make myself the ultimatum to walk away from him, it never works i don't know how he does it but he pulls me right back in. And no we are still not together cos he will never like me altho i can't explain why weird connections keep happening with us.
Then the band is back together but we are drummerless because Todd quit/got fired still confusing there huh. So my sisters kinda now bf drummed for a couple shows and is now recording an EP with us but can't be in our band cos of drama and he has another band.
My kitty died on new years eve from cancer and i realised that when i got tatted i didn't put his death date but the day he went to the hospital cos thats the day i knew something was really wrong and he wasn't gonna make it.. didn't find out about the cancer til new years eve and thats when we put him to sleep.. so i had a crappy ending for last year.

So i was trying to focus on music this year which technically i have cos i've gone to consistant shows since Jan 1rst... but its been hard cos i work so hard to support the denver scene and it doesn't support back it gets old.
I decided that i was going to work on my rap project it still hasn't taken off but i do have an intro for whenever i get to make an album lol.

Ok so i'm extremely tired and dickhead is on my mind so i am deciding just to breathe and go to bed.. hopefully i don't see him tomorrow... I'm going to Bone Thugs N Harmony i kno he likes rap and seriously don't want to see him there.
"Good nite, good nite guys my bright eyes ain't shutting i'm sick of arguing so barging in seemed like it would help something- P.O.S."