Man i am bored right now, and i feel like i should do something so i'm writing a stupid ass random blog...
why you ask cos i've got questions that've got no answers or so i think right lol....
SO i was really happy about the way this past weekend went only because i didn't get my ass kicked and my band had a good practice lol. Ok i'm joking i didn't think i'd get my ass kicked but i thought i'd have to go hard thugger bitch and was a bit worried lol.
If most of the people that read these kno me, then they kno i don't really like being threatened any hint of rudeness and i tend to lose it.. Thanx childhood for that, I've always been on the defensive so i was thrown off guard that for once i didn't have to be.
Yes i speak in tongues its easier than admitting that i actually got a surprise from someone.. like when you hear or see something you least expect and it smacks ya upside the head like DUH... I only say this cos i really did not think that things were as they seemed, i tend to condescend myself because i guess i feel inadequate compared to most because really who am i? I'm not all pompous and think i'm tha shit so i am generally down to earth. But i had 2 people tell me they saw something about the situation and was telling me what they saw from it. I totally doubted them both till recently, except that encounter has now left me confused.
I realise i am completely oblivious to facts that are clear as day lol, altho the situation is still a giant mystery it gives a sliver of hope for what i'm not exactly sure yet lol. It just makes me laugh that i have to never fully say what i mean cos of fear of a reprocussion if there is such a thing for an observation. you be the judge i guess. I'm hoping to find out all this mystery stuff and solve whatever i can .
Well weird as this is i'm actually in an awesome mood right now :)
Seriously tho it makes me look foward to the future in hopes that i will not remain so blah about it and that i can come to terms with certain things and peoples in my past.. i think if i'm so willing to better what i have that things will tend to fall in place. Now i'm not saying that karma and i are friends but i'm under the impression that if you do good in your life that karma will rain down and you will be well recieved i think i read that in a book called Siddartha but damn that was in HS lol, so i'm bullshitting but its better than 100% mis quote right lol.
So this is now a book because i feel good and just want to vent in a good way and that is really odd for me, usually i look at everything so negatively but im seeing things and some people in a different light, is it scary, hell yes but whats the point of moving forward if you cant be objective and observant at the same time lol. I'm hoping i'm making sense and that i'm not the only one who will have good come from this!!
Its like share the wealth day or something... peace fo now
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